Now during those days he went out to the mountain to pray; and he spent the night in prayer to God. And when day came, he called his disciples and chose twelve of them, whom he also named apostles:Simon, whom he named Peter, and his brother Andrew, and James, and John, and Philip, and Bartholomew, and Matthew, and Thomas, and James son of Alphaeus, and Simon, who was called the Zealot, and Judas son of James, and Judas Iscariot, who became a traitor.
He came down with them and stood on a level place, with a great crowd of his disciples and a great multitude of people from all Judea, Jerusalem, and the coast of Tyre and Sidon. They had come to hear him and to be healed of their diseases; and those who were troubled with unclean spirits were cured. And all in the crowd were trying to touch him, for power came out from him and healed all of them.
New Revised Standard Version, copyright 1989, by the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America. Used by permission. All rights reserved. USCCB approved.
It’s hard to be excluded. In spite of myself, I still feel anxious about not being invited, about getting passed by, about being forgotten.
At some point Jesus had to look at his disciples and make some decisions. He had his reasons to name twelve Apostles; in my weaker moments, I wonder what it felt like to be one of the unchosen, equally committed but kept out of center.
As quickly as the thought occurs, though, I remember that my pride and ego are at work. It’s not about me or what I want. It’s about the work Jesus asks of me, and the humility with which I do it. At times, that might land me in the middle of things. Most times, though, I will be called to stand quietly and witness Gospel love unfold.
—Eric Immel, SJ, is a member of the Midwest Jesuits. After six years in Chicago, he recently moved to Boston where he studies theology.
Let me have too deep a sense of humor to be proud.
Let me know my absurdity before I act absurdly.
Let me realize that when I am humble I am most human, most truthful,
and most worthy of your serious consideration.
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